So, I've been trying hard to maintain a good mood today. My Mom goes into surgery tomorrow. She has got to call today to find out what time they have scheduled her.

It's working for the most part, the good mood thing. It's a beautiful day, work on the house is going well (I stopped by on my lunch break). But it's not easy. My whole life right now is just one anxiety provoking situation after another.

The house is going well, but it's still stressful. My sister's due date is the 27th, my Mom will be recovering for the next couple of weeks, and I'm worried about her. Not to mention the tension between my sister and mom, mostly caused by my sister's sorry choice in men, and her worsening situation. It's no wonder I've been drinking and smoking so much. Christ...

On the other hand, I realized last night that I am seriously pushing people away. I could've easily hung out with Joe on Friday, or Saturday, for that matter. I could've had Casey over. There are other instances. My heart just isn't in it lately. I've been thinking alot about things. Possibly too much.

Anyways, in other news, we have new joists and wall framing. Plywood was going down in the kitchen when I was home on my lunch break. We have new windows in the office as well as the kitchen. There is a new exterior light by the doors on the deck. Also, I noticed some light fixtures in boxes in the living room. I only briefly glanced at them, but they seem pretty nice. I need to take some pictures for http://swayingpalms.net/.

Also, over the weekend, I got some serious work done on my website. I am down to days here, not weeks, so I'm spending all my time making sure that everything I want to keep gets transferred over to the new server. Blah. Do you know how long it takes to transfer GB's of data over the internet. Frickin' forever, that's how long. Anyways, I'm out!